It sure is hard to believe it has been almost 8 years since I became I Mommy for the first time!!! In just a few short weeks we will be celebrating one of the three greatest gifts I have ever been given, Conner Scott Taylor!!! Let the Birthday Month Begin!!!! Party details to come!!!
Conner
Scott,
My
sweet first-born child you made me a mother when I honestly had no idea what I
was doing. It was with you that I dipped my toes into motherhood always testing
the water unsure if I was harming you or helping. I should have started this letter last year,
right after I finished your 7th Birthday letter. I could fill up an
entire book with my hopes for you and my pride in you. I hope someday you have
a son, only then will you understand how much love I feel for you, how proud of
you I am. How is it possible that every
day I love you even more? It’s true,
Conner. You are an amazing blessing to me and those around you. Your heart continues to grow by leaps and
bounds. You have such a giving heart. The older you get, the more and more I love
you. Every
day,
when I think it's just not possible; I wake up and realize that I love you even
more than the previous day. You have been a true blessing in my life, a
wonderful gift from God. I could never thank Him enough for picking me,
out of all the Mommies in the world, to be yours.
This
year I have witnessed you grow into your
role as a big brother with so much love, compassion, patience and yes,
enthusiasm. Again, there are no
words to describe how joyful it makes my heart to see you and your sisters
playing together. To see the patience you have with them (sometimes) and
how you love teaching them, it makes my cup runneth over. I know you love your sisters even though they
bother you, copy you, and chase after you too much. They love you back
more than you know. Just as I am
blessed to be your mother, Kennedy and Claire are blessed to have you as their
big brother! I hope all three of you nurture and grow your
friendship for the rest of your lives.
I
know I don’t always get it right, and sometimes I blame you when it was Kennedy
or Claire’s fault. I yell too much and talk too much when I should just
be quiet and listen. My standards for your behavior may be too high and I
often fuss at you for not being quiet or behaving when you are just being a
kid. I am easily frustrated and sometimes short tempered, especially when I
hear a hint of whine. I’m working on it. Some days I get it right,
others I fall way too short of the mark, but despite my shortcomings as a
person and as your Mom, I hope you never spend one day of your life ever
doubting my love for you.
As
you embark on the next year of your life I hope that you will never forget that
you are indeed loved for exactly who you are right now and for the young man
you are growing into. As I say often in our house, we are your family and
you will always be loved no matter what. This is the soft place you can
land where you will always be OK, you will always be welcome and you will
always be loved — no matter what. You are one of the most unique and
amazing individuals I have ever met and my love for you is unconditional,
forever, and always.
I will close my annual birthday letter to you
by telling you something you already know, but think it’s important to say
anyway. I can’t imagine my life without you, Conner Scott. I love you
more than all the stars in the sky!
Love,
Mommy
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