Sunday, April 29, 2012
Next up at the Taylor House....Conner's 8th Birthday Celebration!!!!
Sunday, April 1, 2012
It sure is hard to believe it has been almost 8 years since I became I Mommy for the first time!!! In just a few short weeks we will be celebrating one of the three greatest gifts I have ever been given, Conner Scott Taylor!!! Let the Birthday Month Begin!!!! Party details to come!!!
My sweet first-born child you made me a mother when I honestly had no idea what I was doing. It was with you that I dipped my toes into motherhood always testing the water unsure if I was harming you or helping. I should have started this letter last year, right after I finished your 7th Birthday letter. I could fill up an entire book with my hopes for you and my pride in you. I hope someday you have a son, only then will you understand how much love I feel for you, how proud of you I am. How is it possible that every day I love you even more? It’s true, Conner. You are an amazing blessing to me and those around you. Your heart continues to grow by leaps and bounds. You have such a giving heart. The older you get, the more and more I love you. Everyday, when I think it's just not possible; I wake up and realize that I love you even more than the previous day. You have been a true blessing in my life, a wonderful gift from God. I could never thank Him enough for picking me, out of all the Mommies in the world, to be yours.
This year I have witnessed you grow into your role as a big brother with so much love, compassion, patience and yes, enthusiasm. Again, there are no words to describe how joyful it makes my heart to see you and your sisters playing together. To see the patience you have with them (sometimes) and how you love teaching them, it makes my cup runneth over. I know you love your sisters even though they bother you, copy you, and chase after you too much. They love you back more than you know. Just as I am blessed to be your mother, Kennedy and Claire are blessed to have you as their big brother! I hope all three of you nurture and grow your friendship for the rest of your lives.
I know I don’t always get it right, and sometimes I blame you when it was Kennedy or Claire’s fault. I yell too much and talk too much when I should just be quiet and listen. My standards for your behavior may be too high and I often fuss at you for not being quiet or behaving when you are just being a kid. I am easily frustrated and sometimes short tempered, especially when I hear a hint of whine. I’m working on it. Some days I get it right, others I fall way too short of the mark, but despite my shortcomings as a person and as your Mom, I hope you never spend one day of your life ever doubting my love for you.
As you embark on the next year of your life I hope that you will never forget that you are indeed loved for exactly who you are right now and for the young man you are growing into. As I say often in our house, we are your family and you will always be loved no matter what. This is the soft place you can land where you will always be OK, you will always be welcome and you will always be loved — no matter what. You are one of the most unique and amazing individuals I have ever met and my love for you is unconditional, forever, and always.
I will close my annual birthday letter to you by telling you something you already know, but think it’s important to say anyway. I can’t imagine my life without you, Conner Scott. I love you more than all the stars in the sky!